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I just thought of a new one today, since I'm not feeling to good.  I can really medicate myself well to get me over being sick!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  

 

  

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I had to change my space to something more appropriate to the weather.  Tonz and tonz of white fluffy SNOW!!! 

       

        

      

 

HI all!  I joined eDiets yesterday and was looking around at all the different things to help me out.  This looks like the group for me.  You gals are great!  I'm looking forward to your support and supporting you. 

I am a mother of four, two boys and two girls, ages 7yrs-boy, 5yrs-boy, 3yrs in April-girl and almost 14 months old-girl.  I'm going to be 29 in the middle of the year.  I spend my time overwhelmed with all the laundry and dishes.  My husband is back in school and I can't believe my life is where it is right now.  After each child I put on alittle more and a little more.  I like food!  I'm an emotional eater, I eat when I'm sad.  I eat when I'm happy.  I eat when I'm stressed!  I eat for comfort and I eat for reward(which in the long run really doesn't reward me at all.)I had my baby last January and last February my husband wrecked his big truck and broke his back and my life has been turned upside-down ever since.  I have a lot to be greatful for, it's just hard to remember that all the time.  Physically, my husband is all put back together, but I think we both have emotional issues with it all. Live as we knew it and had plans for completely stopped that day.  My baggage from it is on my thighs, butt, stomach and pretty much everywhere else now, 30lbs of it in less that one year!! Plus 10lbs for each kid.  

  

I'm trying to get an exercise routine figured out, any tips would be helpful.  I have a few workout videos.  I own a treadmill, which right now I use to dry my fat pants on so they don't shrink so I can fit into them (ironic isn't it?) With four small children a gym membership would be much to pricey, plus we'll be moving to a rural area in the summer so I couldn't use it anyway.  My mom wants me to train to do a 5 mile run with her on July 24 and I don't know how to go about that.  I'm sure you could give me some pointers MRSPANTERA.  I just potty trained my soon to be three year old and weened my baby, so I feel like I can take on anything right now!

  

I look forward to this experience with excitment and anxiety.  I hope this to be life changing!!!

  Tomorrow is my son's fifth birthday, he is so excited.  He is proud to be five.  I didn't get to spend his last birthday with him so I'm really looking forward to this one too.  Tomorrow is also the one year annivesary of my husband's crash.  My heart has been full all day thinking about it.  I have alot to be greatful for and I am.  I'm greatful that my husband is still with us and doing great physically.  I'm greatful for my beautiful children, and tomorrow especially I am greatful for my once rolly polly little butterball baby who is now becoming such a big boy with a BIG imagination.  He is such a sweet little guy, I love him so much.  I'm greatful to have my family near to me and greatful to feel so protected.

 

   I LOVE YOU LITTLE MONKEY BOY!

  I LOVE YOU "HOT TOMMY TINKER"

I hate being sick.  I don't remember being this sick except a combination of when I was young and hospitalized for kidney infection and I got my tonsils out.  I went to the hospital this morning and finally found out I have strep throat.  Even though the pain isn't gone it's good to know what is wrong and that there is treatment and there is an end in sight.  I hurt so bad today I was crying for my mom.  Even though she couldn't have done anything for the pain the thought of having her near me made me want to call her so bad and have her come take care of me.  There's no sense in worring her.  That's part of growing up I guess.  I just hope to get better soon!

To truck or not to truck????, that is the question!!!

 

I am remembering what lonely feels like this week.  Especially after the huge engorgement of family and friends over the holidays.  My husband went for a long haul on the truck with his brother-in-law this week.  I am remembering that sad lonesome feeling down in my gut, that constantly drags at me all day.  It's like a dull constant panic.  I thought to myself why is it so different than being gone for the day at work or school?  It must be the hundreds even thousands of miles, each one tearing a bigger hole in my heart.  The distance is so depressing and makes me feel so out of control.  I couldn't be there in a flash if something were to happen and neither could he.  It makes me want to keep my children close by my side so I know all is well with them.  Being poor students is very challenging, but the thought of going back to this life style frightens me to no end.  I have to admit the money trucking brings in has really been tempting me the last few weeks, but this week will be a great reminder why we chose the different road.  I hate this feeling of lonely.

My husband had to make a mask for one of his classes.  It had to represent a fear.  Most people did fear of the dark or being alone.  He wanted to do something different as usual and decided to do fear of the past, specifically of his huge wreck he had at the first of the year.  Which has been life changing for all of us.  He had such a hang up about it.  He couldn't get the assignment done.  The due date came and went, and then the extention came and went.  I was getting more and more frusterated with him for not getting it done.  Plus he kept spending more and more time sleeping.  He would just sleep through class and not do anything.  I figured he didn't want to go because he kept telling his professor he'd do it and then never get it done.  I was getting furious with him.  I couldn't understand why he wouldn't just do it.  Plus he's going back to school and not working much becuase of school and with all the stress of that and having him home now, in stead of on the road I thought it was just reaching a boiling point and I needed a break and to give him a break from us.  So I went to my moms for the weekend to give him time alone to work on homework.  He discovered that his problem was he wasn't ready to face those memories and fears.  He had a real "come to Jesus" moment and did what he could do to at least make it good enough to hand in.  He realizes now he's just not ready to deal with all the emotions with his wreck yet, it's just too early for that.

 

Birthdays just aren't that exciting anymore, the older you get.  At least that's how I felt on my birthday.  He asked me a few days before, if I was excited for his birthday and I said, "I guess... I'm excited to make the cake." (which turned out to be a total bomb) He said I'm not really.  But he knew everything he was getting because he picked it out himself.  It was fun to watch the kids get excited for him.  I still did the dishes and cleaned and changed poopy bums on my birthday, but I didn't mind.  One mother's day I was in tears by the end of the day and my mom told me some good advice.  She said look to it as any other day and so if something extra happens it will make the whole day special.  I tryied it the next year and she was right,  I went into the day with no expectations, and even the littlest gesture of my children giving me their paper mother's day gifts they had made at church that day and a hug and then going straight to asking me to get them a drink of milk was wonderful.  I had a feeling of graditude to be able to be a mom, and to have the opportunity to even have a holiday dedicated to me.  Use this advice next "what ever" and see how much greater your day is.  I love my mom.  And I love my husband (no matter how old he is getting).

I was thinking the other day they have a patch for so many things these days.  You know what would be great is a patch or gum for weight loss.  Sometimes weight is a bad habbit or an addiction like smoking.  It could crub your appetite, give you all your nutrients, leave the sense and satisfaction of chocolate in your mouth, and give you energy, but not with caffine or other addictive or harmful stimulants.  Plus it would need to come with at least one if not two extra hours in the day to use for working out, worry free of the responsiblities of kids, husbands and home.  That would be the ultimate weight loss patch!